Zeal Responds to NoLongerNull’s Sexual Assault Allegations: “It Was Consensual”
Roblox developer Zeal, creator of Pressure, has published a counter-document responding to sexual assault allegations made against him by former composer NoLongerNull (Ren) on April 9, 2026. The response, titled “It Was Consensual,” was posted from a hospital bed via his family, after Zeal says he attempted to take his own life in the days following Ren’s allegations.
The document categorically denies the assault claims, alleges the encounters were mutually initiated and consensual, and argues that Ren retroactively reframed the experience as assault after he declined to pursue a long-distance romantic relationship.
BRCK LTTR has reviewed the full document. Ren has not responded to a request for comment at the time of publication.
Zeal’s Hospitalization
In tweets posted by his account, published on his behalf by family, Zeal states that within 24 hours of Ren’s document going public on April 9, people he considered friends, co-workers, and close contacts blocked, harassed, and distanced themselves from him before he had the opportunity to respond.
He says the mass abandonment caused him to spiral, and he attempted to take his own life that night. He was hospitalized and survived. He remains hospitalized at the time of publication and is restricted from internet access on his doctor’s orders. His mother has been visiting him, allowing him to write offline, and reading him messages from supporters.
He writes: “Writing this document has been a painful, grueling and deeply humiliating experience, as I need to share a lot of incredibly personal details about myself that I would rather have stayed private. However, I believe that sharing these details are necessary in order to defend my name.”
The Central Claim: Ren Initiated the Kiss
The most significant detail in Zeal’s counter-document is one he says Ren omitted entirely from her account. He alleges that on the night of September 3, after Ren had calmed down from crying, she said: “Can I kiss you?”, and that he kissed her only after she asked.
He says she was smiling, laughing, and giggling throughout the encounter, and that nothing in her behavior communicated that what was happening was unwanted. He says he stopped immediately when she expressed discomfort and asked if she was okay before continuing.
He denies pinning her arms, characterizing the moments her hands were above her head as the two interlocking fingers, not restraint. He denies forcing a finger down her throat, calling it something he does not find attractive and saying his hair fell into her mouth accidentally at one point. He denies suggesting oral sex. He denies the specific quote “Welp… this is my penis!” He says he asked permission before ejaculating on her, and she agreed.
He says his shaking after the encounter was not guilt or fear, but the emotion of a first sexual experience with someone he had long had feelings for. He describes it as “a good kind of shakiness.” He says the shower was aftercare, he had read that showering after sex was advisable, and denies any intent to wash away evidence.
He says the “can’t wait for the Google Docs in five years” comment, which Ren described as pre-emptive mockery, was a self-deprecating joke about his own poor sexual performance, not an attempt to discourage her from coming forward.
The Second Night
Zeal says the second encounter on the night of September 4-5 took place over approximately two hours, at Ren’s pace, with him asking permission to kiss her when he arrived. He confirms there was no penile penetration. He says Ren asked him to kiss and lick her neck during foreplay, which accidentally produced the hickey, and that he did not know what a hickey was at the time. He says Ren asked him to spend the night, and he stayed because she wanted him to.
His Core Argument: Retroactive Withdrawal of Consent
Zeal’s overarching argument is that Ren only reframed the encounters as assault after he made clear he was not interested in a long-distance romantic relationship. He writes that he had communicated early on that he saw their arrangement as friends with benefits, that he is not a romantic person, and that the geographical distance between them made a committed relationship unrealistic.
He argues that Ren’s post-RDC messages, which he describes as explicit and enthusiastic, are inconsistent with her account of having been afraid of him. He asks directly: if she was only acting out of fear and conditioning during RDC, why did she repeat those affirmations weeks later from thousands of miles away?
He links to a full transcript of their private Twitter conversation as his primary evidence, compiled by a family member. He attaches an 18+ warning to the link.
He writes: “Consent given cannot be retracted 6 months later.”
His Account of the Lead-Up
On the pre-RDC messages Ren characterized as grooming, Zeal offers point-by-point rebuttals. He says comments about picking her up and throwing her around were playful and excited, not calculated. He says he asked about her height, not weight, out of pride in his physical strength, as a flirtatious gesture. He says Ren was the one who asked where he was staying first. He denies playing with her hair in the suite on September 2, saying he was on his phone and she was playing with his hair.
On the RIA Night and Suicide Attempt
Zeal says he cut contact with Ren on the night of the Roblox Innovation Awards after being told she had shared details of their intimate encounters with multiple people, something he had specifically asked her not to do. He sent a message saying “Stop.” and turned his phone off.
He says he had no knowledge of Ren’s suicide attempt until he returned home days later. He says the police were called not because of him, but because a friend of Ren’s was concerned for her safety after she said she was going to kill herself. He denies engineering the emotional trigger Ren described.
When he learned of the attempt after returning home, he says he was horrified, set aside his anger, and reached out to make sure she was safe.
On the Team
Zeal states that no other team members were present during or supportive of the encounters, and that team members named in Ren’s document learned about what happened from Ren afterward. He denies organizing any coordinated response against her.
He says he learned the full extent of Ren’s behavior toward the team, including alleged harassment of members in person at RDC, only on September 19. He says he decided at that point to gradually distance himself using what he describes as a “Gray Rocking” approach, to avoid triggering another self-harm episode.
On the Twitter Account and the Song
Zeal flatly denies reporting Ren’s private Twitter account. He says he cut contact on September 25 and never interacted with it again.
On the song sweet.mp3, he says he heard it, thought it sounded good, and wanted to use it as a game track in the same way Ren had contributed music before. He says he was in work mode and did not interpret the offer as anything other than professional.
He also denies ever claiming, or knowing anyone who claimed, that Ren sexually assaulted him, directly addressing the reverse accusation that surfaced in the weeks after RDC.
What He Acknowledges
In his conclusion, Zeal admits to several failures. He says he raised his voice at Ren when she streamed unreleased music and regrets reacting in anger. He says he could have communicated more clearly and acted with more empathy after RDC. He acknowledges allowing boundaries to blur in unhealthy ways and not always responding appropriately to her distress. He apologizes for those failures.
He writes: “I recognize that I have not handled every part of this situation perfectly… I take responsibility for my actions and for any hurt they caused. The relationship and interactions between Ren and me were complex and involved mutual decisions and continued communication.”
He adds: “I do not share this context lightly. I respect Ren’s right to process our interactions differently, and I recognize that her feelings may have changed over time. But I need to explain the full context.”
Note on Evidence
Zeal acknowledges he cannot provide screenshots for several claims, as the relevant conversations took place on Discord, which he cannot access from the hospital. He marks these instances explicitly throughout the document. The primary evidence he cites is the private Twitter transcript, compiled by a family member, which he links publicly with an 18+ warning. He notes the document was partially structured with help from his parents for clarity, and that the language in sections may be more formal than his usual style as a result.
BRCK LTTR has reached out to NoLongerNull for comment and will update this article if a response is received.